21

Twenty one, a number that has been a stop where I wanted to reach so much last time. It brings so many meaning: it means I am an adult and no longer teen; I can make my own decision in life; I get to choose where I want to be; I can drive; I can be like my cousins… 

But when that day comes, I did not feel any more special than other day, it is another ordinary day. I wake up, go class, cook and do work. Many people asked me how it feels like to be 21. I have no answer to that, just feeling normal. 

I would only say that I am a very blessed person. Blessed to be able to live happily, healthily and safely. Blessed to have received many wishes from family and friends. Blessed to know that whatever happens, my family got my back. Blessed to have friends that make a home away from home so warm. We learn, laugh, cry and explore together. 

How I imagined 21 to be and how I exactly felt is very different but who I am right now is no stranger to me. Growth is ongoing process that does not happen in one day. I accumulated wisdom and strength up to this day. Every step and decision I made, I learnt to take responsibility of it. I understand myself better now after falling down, getting hurt and standing up again. Maybe this is what turning 21 means, being ready to venture and take on more from life. 

TQ for the birthday surprise despite all of us being so busy, for the time and effort spent.

TQ for the meal and hang out, simple thing like this meant a lot to me.

TQ for the card, dress and gift. Also, for the care and guidance all this while.

TQ for the shoes, it’s an early surprise but I got your wishes.

TQ for the cake and card, let’s work towards our graduation together.

Needa destress a bit

It's exams season everywhere. As I go through my Facebook newsfeed, I see some just finish, some half way through and mine just started.

It's very common for me to shut myself from everything else other than exams related stuff because my brain capacity a bit overload and it lags. My response can be very slow for simple questions like what is my plan for tomorrow. Staring too long at my notes (paper or on screen) makes me more sleepy than usual. And I can be laughing at some small things that I don't find it funny normal days and then suddenly feel demotivated in the next hour. I guess these are symptoms of stress.When I feel like taking a break, I'll get some snacks, read stories, listen to songs or take a walk. I enjoy looking at scenery: the sky, cloud, tree, grass, lake, fountain. 

I thank God for the friends that I have. We study together and keep each other motivated. We cheer each other up and you would know there's always someone there for you. From last semester to this semester, you have never fail to bring smile to my face. There are times I'm revising and feel hungry when my housemates give me food. Just at the right timing, haha. I remember there are soup, spaghetti and fruits. When I feel bored, you tag me with some funny photos or videos or some nice songs. When I'm having my last paper and you're out celebrating, your texts just made my day. Your concerns (how I'm doing, how's my day, remembering when is my next paper...) warm up my heart. All the smiles, hugs, SMSes, messages etc... They are able to make me smile or laugh and even cheer me up when I look back. Thank you, to all of you =D

Ok, it's time for me to get back to my notes now. Break time over, hehe :) 

Uninstall 2012

Time for some reflection. 

            My last semester for A-level, first semester in uni. Stressed out for six months, holiday for three months. A door is closed, another window opened. So many goodbye hugs and hello handshakes. Have been a senior with survival tips ready at hand, now a junior exploring uni life. Missing my old buddies but enjoying and being blessed by the new family at the same time. Placed full stop to many stories and started new chapters too. 

            So many opposing elements, but I can only say that it’s unavoidable for a transition stage. I guess it is the collision of these opposing elements that grows us, drives us to keep moving on and gives tastes to our memories. How fast things change and how fast time moves! It seems like yesterday when we eat and have fun together. Now, we’re miles apart in different places or even countries. I finished my first semester, it still doesn’t sink into me yet. I’ve tried new things and gained new experiences, expected or unexpected. I thought I have enough but there’s more to come. Yes, 2013 is definitely better for awesome and greater things are yet to come! =)